Until Grace
Five years ago this week, I had surgery to remove breast cancer. I had a good team of doctors and surgeons. It was more advanced than we had hoped, but we were thinking positively. At the time my kids were only 7 and 12 and I was only 47. I decided then and there that I would do everything in my power to beat cancer and be the best person I could be for my kids. The one thing missing from my plan was God and his grace. This was one more obstacle in my life that I was attempting to get through without praying and asking for God's grace. I asked friends and family to help, but I didn't ask God. All of the kids at St. Mary's were praying specifically for me, but I didn't know how to receive the gift they were giving to me. I accepted it, but I felt unworthy. I felt like I was just wasting my time asking God to help me. I didn't know how bad I felt or how much I was missing out on by not allowing him to guide me.
I have gradually learned these last few years that I do not want to do this life on my own without God's grace. His grace is what gets me up in the morning and propels me through my day. In addition to reading many Catholic books and authors, I have also been listening to Christian music. This has been a game changer for me. I usually have something to say about whatever is happening around me. I have had to humble myself in that I don't know the Bible or God like I should. I have looked up so many Bible verses after listening to different Christian artists and groups.
A couple weeks ago after an 18 month delay, Trinity, Gina - our birthmom, and myself all finally got to see Lauren Daigle in concert. So awesome. It was powerful and inspiring to see so many Christians gathered in one area praising God. However, there is one song that has really just hit me in the heart "Until Grace" by Tauren Wells. I'm telling you this song speaks to me. Listen when He calls your name. You are not alone. Take his hand and enjoy his grace.
